Post by Juddy Bear on Aug 25, 2012 0:20:04 GMT -5
Hello you three...as you can imagine, it sucks to be sitting here also being an original Gwad yet being excluded for the later half of the game...it obviously doesn't feel good.
I don't have many questions and the ones I do have don't have much to do with your games, they have to do with mine. First I'll give comments, then questions.
Ted I'll start with you.
I came into this game not sure where you and I would end up, but knowing both of our previous connections I knew we'd wind up on the same side one way or another. Also knowing who you ended up being in Kalahari and making that connection, I wasn't sure how much I would be able to trust you. I was pleasantly surprised with you. You were loyal, but more importantly, you kept me in the loop of everything more than anyone else did for me in the game...well besides one thing of course...Bob's idol.
I'm not upset with you...you obviously didn't trust me, or rather, you were such a trustworthy person, Bob told you not to tell and so you kept your word. So you know, your little talk when I found out about it wasn't too convincing. I was pretty certain you knew about it which is why I came to you in the first place. I wasn't looking to spread it, but I wanted to know if you knew and if you didn't, I knew you wouldn't leak it. But your whole "Oh he told me" 5 minutes after you said you were going to talk to him about it was obviously fishy. =P
Overall, I'd say you were loyal and I appreciate you sticking by me to my end. I enjoyed playing this game with you and I wish I could have been a better ally to you, but Brett Lex and I all knew that my activity would waver upon joining the game. I did what I could, but I know it wasn't nearly enough. But I do apologize to you, but you made it regardless and I am happy about that.
My questions to you:
1. Did you know ANYTHING about me possibly getting votes or were you generally surprised at my removal? (I already know the answer so be honest.)
2. On a scale from 1-10 in terms of severity (explanations please): How hard was me leaving for you? How nervous were you after I left for your own game? How much did you enjoy me this game?
(Now about your game)
1. I just want to know, straight up, what makes you the prime choice for a winner. But not an essay...I want 5 adjectives that describe your personality in the game/your game as a whole that would gain you favor over the other 2.
Thanks Ted. I wish I had more time in real life to talk to you in the game because I think both of our loyalty traits would have worked wonders. Maybe in another time! =) Good luck man!
Jay:
Well, I will say that after I left I was genuine with you. I enjoyed you and I did wish you the best...but seeing that other idol fly out the round Mary left, I was pretty pissed. I thought you and I had a great relationship and had a good time. I was upset to find out that you never filled me in on this little idol you found. I honestly, if anyone would have asked me who you'd tell first if you found one, I would have guessed me. Obviously proven wrong. That one stung...it really did. I have nothing more to say to you really but I have questions.
1. Did you know ANYTHING about me possibly getting votes or were you generally surprised at my removal? (I already know the answer so be honest.)
2. On a scale from 1-10 in terms of severity (explanations please): How hard was me leaving for you? How nervous were you after I left for your own game? How much did you enjoy me this game?
3. If the answer to #1 was you didn't know I was going to be getting votes/leaving, HAD you known I was, would you have used the idol on me-- why or why not? If the answer was you did know I was getting votes/leaving, why didn't you use the idol on me?
4. I'm not sure if you forgot that we actually made a pact to work together? To be honest I was looking at you and I to go much farther than my alliance with Bob and Ted. I just felt a connection with you. You said you purposefully didn't talk game and didn't make alliances in the early portion, but you can't say that....we went to Tribal the first few rounds and you were forced to talk game and we did make an alliance.
So I want to know, did me leaving free you up, or did you forget we made an alliance and me leaving didn't make a difference for you?
(Now about your game)
1. Why should Bob and Ted win over you? Give me 3 things each of them had that you didn't.
2. Do you think the "nice guy" will finish first this time? Tell me any and all votes you think you'll get in this Jury and tell me why.
Thanks. I did enjoy you this game, but I kind of feel shafted by you which left me with a bitter taste in the end...you may not have voted me out like Tom did to you in season 3, but I feel you were just as deceptive while you led me to believe certain things. It's ok. It's the game, but I still don't enjoy it.
Finally...Bob....
I am using the Gwadatoo color for you because, after all, we are both Gwadatoo brothers.
First of all, may I just start this statement with a big FUCK YOU!!
[/b]I don't have many questions and the ones I do have don't have much to do with your games, they have to do with mine. First I'll give comments, then questions.
Ted I'll start with you.
I came into this game not sure where you and I would end up, but knowing both of our previous connections I knew we'd wind up on the same side one way or another. Also knowing who you ended up being in Kalahari and making that connection, I wasn't sure how much I would be able to trust you. I was pleasantly surprised with you. You were loyal, but more importantly, you kept me in the loop of everything more than anyone else did for me in the game...well besides one thing of course...Bob's idol.
I'm not upset with you...you obviously didn't trust me, or rather, you were such a trustworthy person, Bob told you not to tell and so you kept your word. So you know, your little talk when I found out about it wasn't too convincing. I was pretty certain you knew about it which is why I came to you in the first place. I wasn't looking to spread it, but I wanted to know if you knew and if you didn't, I knew you wouldn't leak it. But your whole "Oh he told me" 5 minutes after you said you were going to talk to him about it was obviously fishy. =P
Overall, I'd say you were loyal and I appreciate you sticking by me to my end. I enjoyed playing this game with you and I wish I could have been a better ally to you, but Brett Lex and I all knew that my activity would waver upon joining the game. I did what I could, but I know it wasn't nearly enough. But I do apologize to you, but you made it regardless and I am happy about that.
My questions to you:
1. Did you know ANYTHING about me possibly getting votes or were you generally surprised at my removal? (I already know the answer so be honest.)
2. On a scale from 1-10 in terms of severity (explanations please): How hard was me leaving for you? How nervous were you after I left for your own game? How much did you enjoy me this game?
(Now about your game)
1. I just want to know, straight up, what makes you the prime choice for a winner. But not an essay...I want 5 adjectives that describe your personality in the game/your game as a whole that would gain you favor over the other 2.
Thanks Ted. I wish I had more time in real life to talk to you in the game because I think both of our loyalty traits would have worked wonders. Maybe in another time! =) Good luck man!
Jay:
Well, I will say that after I left I was genuine with you. I enjoyed you and I did wish you the best...but seeing that other idol fly out the round Mary left, I was pretty pissed. I thought you and I had a great relationship and had a good time. I was upset to find out that you never filled me in on this little idol you found. I honestly, if anyone would have asked me who you'd tell first if you found one, I would have guessed me. Obviously proven wrong. That one stung...it really did. I have nothing more to say to you really but I have questions.
1. Did you know ANYTHING about me possibly getting votes or were you generally surprised at my removal? (I already know the answer so be honest.)
2. On a scale from 1-10 in terms of severity (explanations please): How hard was me leaving for you? How nervous were you after I left for your own game? How much did you enjoy me this game?
3. If the answer to #1 was you didn't know I was going to be getting votes/leaving, HAD you known I was, would you have used the idol on me-- why or why not? If the answer was you did know I was getting votes/leaving, why didn't you use the idol on me?
4. I'm not sure if you forgot that we actually made a pact to work together? To be honest I was looking at you and I to go much farther than my alliance with Bob and Ted. I just felt a connection with you. You said you purposefully didn't talk game and didn't make alliances in the early portion, but you can't say that....we went to Tribal the first few rounds and you were forced to talk game and we did make an alliance.
So I want to know, did me leaving free you up, or did you forget we made an alliance and me leaving didn't make a difference for you?
(Now about your game)
1. Why should Bob and Ted win over you? Give me 3 things each of them had that you didn't.
2. Do you think the "nice guy" will finish first this time? Tell me any and all votes you think you'll get in this Jury and tell me why.
Thanks. I did enjoy you this game, but I kind of feel shafted by you which left me with a bitter taste in the end...you may not have voted me out like Tom did to you in season 3, but I feel you were just as deceptive while you led me to believe certain things. It's ok. It's the game, but I still don't enjoy it.
Finally...Bob....
I am using the Gwadatoo color for you because, after all, we are both Gwadatoo brothers.
First of all, may I just start this statement with a big FUCK YOU!!
Seriously man...I feel completely used to be honest. I FEEL like you used our previous relationship to aid you. It wasn't just playing the game, using someone like you did with Eliza to trick them into helping you. You came to me before this game even started and made a pact to the end. Of course I agreed. YOU WERE MY FRIEND! One of my close ones. I understand that not all friendships can last through this game, but you obviously had other plans from day 1....day 1 bro! All this shit I'm hearing from Ted about your plans, what you've told him...that should have been me!
You can blame my "big mouth" if you want to, but the point is that you trapped me. You came to me before the game happened, continued to pursue me, then on top of it you kept me on your tribe...basically making me follow you through the fire. I had no problem having your back, I would have it to the end of every game, but all the shit you spread about me, all the lying you did to me, and the complete deception....it was unnecessary. You USED our FRIENDSHIP to trap me and use me in this game...I'm not going to break that pact with you and you knew I wouldn't.
The night I left I obviously confronted you with a simple question. I asked you "Did you know I was leaving" and you said "I heard that it was an option". You're a pussy! Just be a man and say it! Say "Yes I knew and I also voted you out. I can't explain yet but I'm sorry." And just for the record, the ass kissing on other boards wasn't appreciated.
I think my demise was (Sorry Wanda) confronting you like I did when I found out you had the idol, but to be honest, I was pissed I was the last in your little circle to find out and you didn't even tell me. And when I confronted you instead of admitting it you just acted surprised as all hell wondering how I found out. You were concealing it from me purposefully...all this talk about my big mouth and all the things I've seen you said...you never had my back at all and you used mistakes I've made in the past against me, because I KNOW you know that if we're tight, I would never spread something you wouldn't want spread. I KNOW you know that you can trust me because we've done it before...so I was someone you were using for your benefit until you didn't need me and then you let me go.
You fucked with me man...hard! I'm normally a forgive and forget person (eventually) when it comes to these games, but you made it personal by bringing friendship into it. YOU did that. YOU chose me. YOU wanted to play with ME. YOU kept me "close" all game...and YOU threw me away (unnecessarily) to benefit your ass.
I don't even think you NEEDED to get rid of me. The only benefit it had was for the game value. We would have had 5 going into 10 numbers. Yeah sure, on paper it would end in a tie.
First of all, you were well aware our side had 2 idols so that shouldn't have been a worry.
Secondly, Mary and Coach both isolated themselves by voting Kelly. Once they did that, they were split from Desterrados AND Kourtney would have still had Coach's number. So in all honesty, I don't see how getting rid of me was some brilliant plan. If anything it benefited Ace more than it did you since he moved up in the ranks (or so he thought) and all it did for you was just allowed you to play a game where everyone now finds you as a lying sack of shit. Good on ya for that special move.
Enough rambling. I have loads of questions for you:
1. On a scale from 1-10 in terms of severity (explanations please): How hard was me leaving for you? - Did you ACTUALLY care?
How nervous were you after I left for your own game?- Did you know you made a good move, or do you think that you possibly could have thrown me away giving Gwad the low end of numbers?
How much did you enjoy me this game?
2. Please explain to me why you did what you did. Do YOU think it was a necessary move looking back, or do you think you could have managed to the end without voting me out?
3. Why didn't you tell me straight up that you knew I was leaving and you voted for me as well?
4. Would you do it again if you could know all that happened afterwards?
5. How much heat were you expecting to get from me after that move? How nervous were you about it or did it even phase you at all? Did it all live up to what you were expecting?
(Now about your game)
1. Give me a brief explanation of why you are better in this game than every single Juror (individual analysis for each not just one summary.) No joking on this one. I don't want bullshit answers. Give it straight and like you mean it.
I hope you realize how upset I still am...not bitter about being voted out, but of what you did to me. I don't ever talk like this unless I'm very upset and you should know that. It's funny...saying you should know that to everything I'm saying about myself...because you know me, we have a history.
I hope throwing that away was worth this game to you. And most of all, I hope it's a close vote and that you lose 6-5 and my vote, my unwavering vote is the one reason why you don't win this game...because in the end, that would all make it worth it to me...and then we can both have what we want!
And if you say anything about "this is just a game, don't take it personally" I swear...you're playing with real people. You make REAL friendships here and I think this is why I've tried not to stay close to many people...because we play these games and you can't align in every one and in the end you just get hurt...this was a real friendship and one of few that I actually cared about. Dwell on that. I hope you can take solace in the good and fun times we did have...because even though I won't be, hopefully it's enough to keep your head up for.[/color]
TO ALL:
I wish I was sitting there with you...or at least to the final 4 like I always pictured... I guess I just want to know that you might have felt that same way too.
So as a good gesture to me and something that I might be able to read back on and enjoy at some point, I want you 3 to write me a short something...maybe a memory we've had or just something you've enjoyed about me and our relationship.
We've all 3 had good times, though some have been short and others I've known longer.
But I don't want this here...I want a PM from each of you (and anyone else who wants to (voluntary! =) )) and I just want a letter of sorts...I wrote my piece when I left and I'd like one from you...whatever is on your heart to write, please write. I think it might release bitterness and help me to think more clearly on who should win...but if anything, it's just something for me since I consider(ed) you 3 friends.
This probably won't impact my vote at all, so write as much or as little as you want, or write nothing at all. If you don't have the time then I understand. My busy schedule was the downfall of me and I won't make it yours. I'm giving you all a fair shot and I wish you 3 the best.
Thanks for your time!
Love,
Judd[/center]