And I'd like to go out in a well mannered way, so here it goes.
(Do not read further if you don't care to. This is a very sappy goodbye letter from Judd that probably doesn't pertain to most of you...read if you feel the need to though! =PThis was obviously not expected and I hate to admit that. But not because it was strategic, but because I don't understand why of everyone else I'm the one being voted for since I'm probably the least threatening.
I'm being serious when I say I haven't been around to talk for like 3 days. I just have so much going on in my life right now just from work to being involved in church, school starting and soccer season as well. Not to mention, I just got in a major car crash and completely totaled my car. I'm ok, although I'm sure no one was wondering, but not fully insured and now will have a dwindling bank account to get a new one...
Overall, it's just my pride that makes me want to say "Most of you guys suck at the game and I wasn't blindsided" and all that other junk...That would be a lie. I mean about the second part. =) I mean...don't get me wrong, this definitely hurt, but I think there are a lot more things I need to worry about and this will definitely pass soon I feel. As much as I would LOVE to play this series for ONCE in its entirety, I just can't manage it all and it's getting to me.
To my allies...I'm sorry for being a sucky one. Just too busy like I said to really come around and talk a whole lot, but thanks for making this last game a decent one for me! =)
To my not allies...well, I guess me being a sucky ally was beneficial...yay you!! =D
Play nice and hard, I don't expect a game like this to have anything but the best entertainment...please don't let it suck!! =)
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As this is my last game I would like to thank Brett and Lex for everything, not just the games they've put on for all of us, but the friendships as well. I've made some very good friends throughout my time in ORG's, but you 2 have been my closest and best. Never betrayed me and you may be the only 2 and we've also had some great times! I wish you 2 the best in the rest of the series! =)
As for the rest....I guess I never did or ever DO expect to get betrayed by people you're loyal to...especially ones you've actually cared for and consider friends outside of the game. I'm very foolish and naive, but I think that's what makes me....well ME! I've had my good times and bad...this has just been an awful week for me which may explain this unprecedented letter that no one will care about but I need to say anyways!
I've shared some great times with most of you and you guys make the ORG experience what it is...but I guess I've recently decided that this isn't a place I need to or want to be anymore. I don't like what it's made me out to be and I don't enjoy it much anymore. It's lost its flavor for me and I normally came to have fun....nowadays it feels like a chore...a job. I don't have much fun and I think that's the signal that I don't need to be here anymore.
It's sucked a lot out of my life for the past 2 years, but I wouldn't take any of it back. It's been 2 years full of laughter, hardships, and strategizing and now I feel it's time to hang up my torch...for good! I wish you all the best in anything and everything you do. I've had loads of fun talking to most of you and for those that I haven't gotten a chance to talk to...I'm sorry, and I hope maybe you might be too that we didn't get much time to get to know each other.
We all have a certain story and qualities that make us who we are...I just honestly wish I had more time to figure everyone's out. I know in the game people's characters come into question and our qualities and characters get skewed, but I do believe this community is a great one and full of good people who are just looking to have a good time and play this game...
As cheesy as it is, just don't take any of it or granted.
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If any of you would like to talk at all, babyxbearxboo
I will be around for about another week or so. My date I'm picking that you'll be able to reach me until is this Friday...but then I'm leaving this community, aim and everything for good and I won't leave a trace...this is for personal reasons and ones I don't really want to disclose right now.
But regardless, I would like to say goodbye to a lot of you so if you have the time, just drop me an IM. There's one person who has my number... DON'T GIVE IT OUT OR I'LL KILL YOU!!!
Sorry for the super long note...It's probably stupid but whatever.
I really am a sensitive and sentimental guy...which is why I hold loyalty so high and why I'm so hurt when I'm betrayed, but it's the game and I hold no ill feelings. I'm normally a super bitter person when voted out...and I feel it right now, but I'm trying to not let it get the best of me. =P I almost didn't play this game because I was worried about my schedule, but even though I feel like a pansy for the way I played and this is how it ended, I wouldn't take it back and enjoyed it all.
In the end, I hoped that I've made more friends than enemies in my time around here and these are times I'll remember forever as a part of my life. My goal in this last game was to right my wrongs and to hopefully go out by having all relationships mended or strengthened in some way. I think leaving this way might put a few road blocks in that, but that's not my cross to bare. Anyways, overall I think I've played this game honestly and to be quite honest, I don't I had that notorious big mouth this time around. I tried to play it the best I could with what I was given and I tried to be as heroic as a Juddy Bear can be! =) I think I accomplished what I came here to do and I'm just happy for it all to be honest.
I like to think that you people and these games have kind of shaped me in ways and taught me a lot of lessons. I've changed a lot and grown a lot and I'm not sure I would have had I not been invited to this community...so for that I'll always be grateful!
Ok, I think I'm done. Best of luck to everyone.
Love,
Your neighborhood Juddy/Boo Bear =)
